The Season We're In

I've tried to write at least 3 different post in the last couple of months, but none of them got published.

Life is a little crazy right now.

My son was born on Christmas Day, at home, in a tub. It was INTENSE - that's the best word to describe it.

Being a full time mom of two is definately something that requires way more patience and energy that I ever thought possible.

Right now, both of my kids and I are in the midst of cold and flu season. Being sick (even if the cold doesn't knock you on your butt) and having two sick kids is really an experience I could not have understood until I was in the midst of it. It's a day to day way to live. And it's always so sad when the little babies are sick.

Last night my husband came home at 8pm after working all day and attending a meeting at church. I asked him to put the older boy to bed - since I was nursing the younger one - and after I was done nursing I went to bed. (I don't even think I kissed my husband good night)

Today as I dropped my older son off with my in-laws for their weekly play date my mother-in-law reminded me that Saturday is our anniversary. They graciously offered to watch the kids so we could celebrate. Needless to say I was a little embarassed to need my mother-in-law to remind me of that. I'm also not ready to leave my 2 month old (even for a couple of hours) with anyone else.

On Sunday both of the boys will be dedicated at church and we've invited a ton of people to come over and have lunch with us to celebrate this very important event. And after lunch my husband goes back to church for a church council meeting.

And that's just the way it is righ tnow.

On Saturday we may just send the older boy to the in-laws, order a pizza and watch an OnDemand movie to celebrate our 6 years together. That doesn't mean I don't adore my husband or love our marriage...that's just the season we're in.

I Just Can't Resist

It's Valentines Day, and I'll take this opportunity to publicly proclaim the gift that my husband is to me.

We've had a rough couple of years. We moved away from our hometown - in the truest sense of the word it is our HOME town. All of our deepest friendships, our parents, and a couple of our siblings got farther away with this move. At the beginning this was exciting and a great big adventure. Then reality set in and the loss is still one that we struggle to understand and reconcile. We have moved twice in the two years we've lived here. We got pregnant and had our first baby. We struggled through depression and debilitating anxiety.

We've also grown in our faith in God to provide what we need. We've learned how to take each other a little less seriously (laugh a little more). We've been blessed with a beautiful baby boy.

My Love, Thank You!

Thank you for sticking by this silly and often times grumpy little girl of a wife that God has given you. You make her happy more often than you know AND a lot more often than she tells you. As life keeps rolling on please remember that I love you and cherish the gifts of your friendship, companionship, and passionate affection. Happy Valentines Day!